Friday, March 29, 2019

There is a village of women who know they are fire & they burn fierce
with Love & even though each of them lives in different places, far apart,
in golden fields & loud cities & by oceans & rivers & underneath the
baobabs in Africa, still they come together often in dreams & for all you may think they are just ordinary women you pass on the street every day, they are the ones who hold the Heart of the World for all of us who will come after.
                            - Flying Edna

I've just returned home from a retreat with my village of women.  They say it takes a village so the seven of us meet every spring, deep in the quiet outdoors, five hundred acres of sprawling greenery off the Carolina coast.  It is a spiritual oasis, an ocean of love, nestled away in the towering trees that shield us from a busy beach resort just outside its rustic grounds.

We come not knowing what love has in store for us.  However, one thing we know for certain is that we care deeply about each other, and about the brokenness of our country and the world in which we live.We are warriors of love.  And we come together to be in sacred relationship, to commune from the depths of our inner being, where each ones devotion to truth nourishes our soul, lifts our spirit, and fills our reservoir.  

Suspended in time and embraced by a community of like-minded warriors - men, women, and children, we share our stories.  We laugh and cry and sing.  We hold each other tenderly in the fire because that's what love requires.  Sometimes the men join in our circle of seven - Jeff, Will, or Bill, adding tidbits of sagely wisdom and inspiration.  We share our visions for a better world.  A world filled with love rather than fear.

And we come together with intention.  Because intention is everything.  Our intention is to support and empower one another so that our wise woman love spills over into every part of our life, an unbroken stream informing every word, thought and action so that we may sow seeds of love, not hatred, that mend our towns, cities and country sides.  Because we all know - it is time!

Time to heal and to share what we have received because we can only share what we have gleaned from our own true and examined experience.  The unexamined life carries no weight on this path of fierce love. For love can only be sown by those who carry the seeds of love in their heart.

So our work together is to listen carefully, to see where loves light may be hidden - perhaps behind an old wound, or a judgement, or sense of shame that inadvertently cut us off from loves pure flow.  Like a plant cut off at its root that has withered and died, there are parts of ourself cut off from our heart.

Jeff keeps reminding us to be patient because "love moves slowly."  Even when I want it to move fast and wildly and without holding back.  Yet, do not dismay I am told.  Because love has its own perfect way.

Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world.
All things break.  And all things can be mended.  Not with
time, as they say, but with intention.
So go.  Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally.
The broken world waits in darkness for the light that is you.
-  L. R. Knost  

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Brenda Ueland on Imagination and Creativity



     The following are some of my favorite lines from Brenda Ueland’s beautiful and inspiring classic, “If You Want to Write”.

Taken from chapter IV:

“The Imagination Works Slowly and Quietly”

“Our idea that we must always be energetic and active is all wrong . . .  your soul gets frightfully sterile and dry because you are so quick, snappy and efficient about doing one thing after another that you have not time for your own ideas to come in and develop and gently shine . . .

So . . . dare to be idle, i.e., not to be pressed and duty-driven all the time . . . for great and creative men know what is best for every man is his own freedom so that his imagination . . . can grow in its own way.

The imagination needs moodling, - long, inefficient, happy idling, dawdling and puttering  . . . If good ideas do not come at once, or for a long time, do not be troubled at all.  Wait for them.  Put down the little ideas however insignificant they are.  But do not feel, any more, guilty about idleness and solitude.

 . . . [T]he dreamy idleness that children have, an idleness when you walk alone for a long, long time . . . or dig in a garden or drive a car for many hours alone, or play the piano . . . or paint ALONE . . . where you sit with pencil and paper or before a typewriter quietly putting down what you happen to be thinking, that is creative idleness . . . at such times you are being slowly filled and re-charged with warm imagination, with wonderful, living thoughts.

It must come from your true self and not your theoretical self, from what you really think, love and believe, not from your hope to make an impression.

Good ideas come slowly, and that the more clear, tranquil and unstimulated you are, the slower the ideas come but the better they are. 

What you write today is the result of some span of idling yesterday, some fairly long period of protection from talking and busyness.


Remember this:  you may not be conscious, when you sit down, of having evolved something important to say.  You will sit down as mentally blank . . . just the same, when you begin to write presently something will come out, something true and interesting.”

Saturday, May 27, 2017

The Empire Builder



(A short story)

For three days now we have been living and sleeping in a “Superliner roomette”.  My husband calls it our “closette” which more accurately describes the spatial dimensions of our tiny compartment.  We are traveling cross country on the “Empire Builder”, a fading Amtrak passenger train, once known as the ultra-sheik of the great Northern railroad that shuttled the super-rich from Chicago to Glacier National Park and beyond.  By all appearances, the great steel icon has desperately fallen from grace.

From the window of our “roomette”, I eagerly gaze out over expansive fields of golden hay and corn, the northern Midwest – Illinois, Wisconsin, Minnesota, North Dakota, and our final destination, Montana.  Mesmerized by the ever-changing topography, I watch the grassy hills of North Dakota gradually morph into flat, golden fields under a big Montana sky.

Initially, we struggle to set up our space or lack thereof.  All arms and legs, we awkwardly reach, climb and squeeze past each other attempting to locate the single outlet that will allow us to plug in our cell phones and tablets discovering, quite by accident, a tiny space beneath the seats where our shoes fit perfectly.  Life’s little surprises.

With a critical eye, I quickly scan the space.  Wastebasket, hooks for jackets, two clean towels and washcloths,  a tiny reading lamp by each seat,  table tray that pulls out,  two bottled waters,  and a narrow bed that descends from the ceiling as the seats below pull together ( barely) to form a second bed.  It is actually a very efficient use of space. Oh, and I almost forgot -  a blue pleated curtain Velcro’s shut across the windowed door of our tiny compartment for privacy.  “Thank God!” I hear myself say.

Then I recall yesterday’s headline news.  The Iraqi people attempting to flee their homeland are trapped by militants on a mountaintop.  And here we are sitting in luxury by comparison, and even in comparison to the passengers seated in coach who for some will have no privacy for several days with no room to even lie down.  Some are single mothers with sick or nursing infants.   I am immediately humbled.  Until dinner time.

The soggy green beans and defrosted veggie lasagna leave much to be desired, however, the interesting company more than make up for our limp, overcooked meal.  We have been seated in the dining car next to John and Georgia, an older retired couple from rural Illinois.  John does most of the talking while Georgia simply nods and looks out the window.

John,  a retired banker turned organic farmer,  says he is learning how to grow his own apple orchard which generally takes 3-4 years to produce a decent crop of apples,  a venture in delayed gratification not unlike banking I would imagine where one makes investments and wait for them to come to fruition (no pun intended). John’s son, an environmental engineer, and his archaeologist daughter- in- law, recently took up organic farming then persuaded John and Georgia to join them.  At ripening time, Georgia prepares jars of apple butter to sell at market or distribute among family members - all of them, good hardworking Midwesterners as one would expect.  We enjoy quite a lively conversation until it’s time to give up our table to another couple waiting to be seated.

After dinner, back in our roomette, I continue to stare out the window while my husband reads.  This time a bright, full moon stares back at me.  The size of the moon appears exaggerated and if my arms were only a wee bit longer, I magically tell myself, I could reach out and touch it.  I watch as the last trace of fading sky disappears into the black night like someone has slowly turned down the dimmer switch.  And with the disappearance of my outdoor movie theater, I decide to retire for the night.

As I change into PJ’s, across the narrow hall in the roomette opposite us, we overhear a couple's conversation.  Considering our close proximity, it is not surprising.  We might as well pull back the stiff pleated curtain that separates us and join in.  The couple is going back and forth whether or not to use the train’s shower.  My husband and I smile at each other as we eavesdrop, whispering between us that we will pass on the shower tonight.

Soon after boarding the train, Bobby, our all too eager- to- please “bellman” gave us a mini tour of the adjacent area, pointing out the bathroom, shower, and a small compartment turned magazine, candy shop.  Magazines, the type seen in office waiting rooms – “Better Homes and Gardens”, “People”, “Cooking Light” - lay nicely splayed across the flattened seats for effect.  An empty popcorn bucket turned money collector is positioned among assorted snicker bars and peanut brittle with a taped sign reading, “Place Money Here”.  I assume we have a trusting clientele.

 I offer to take the top bunk since it is smaller by comparison to the makeshift bed below.  Soon, I regret my gracious offer.  Throughout the night I roll back and forth across my mattress/slab of concrete while the train rumbles and screeches on its track, hoping the rhythmic motion will lull me to sleep.  But no such luck.  To make matters worse, within seconds of my husband’s head hitting the pillow, he is snoring loudly. Just like home.

Well into the pre-dawn hours of the next day as I lay wide awake exhausted from the blaring sounds and motion of the train, wondering whether I will ever fall asleep, there rises an urgent need to use the bathroom.  However, climbing down from the upper bunk poses a bit of a threat.  I recall a “step” below that doubles as an armrest by day.  Locating it, I carefully feel my way in the dark, trying (halfheartedly) not to step on my snoring husband.  I land securely without much difficulty, making my way out into the hall towards the restroom.  

The restroom is a tight fit with one miniature sink and toilet.  Basically standing room only.  And in my foggy state of mind, I forget to lock the door. But who's up at this hour anyway?  I soon find out.  Stooped over with my pajama bottoms down around my ankles, the door suddenly opens. Standing there is a vaguely familiar gray hair man (possibly the one in the room opposite us) who mutters profuse apologies as he slams the door shut.  I am mortified. 

Next morning in the dining car, I avoid all eye contact, keeping my fingers crossed that we won’t be seated next to my pre-dawn mystery man.  My wish is granted.  We are seated next to Lennie and Olivia, a retired couple in their late eighties, impressively fit and mentally clear for their age.  We learn Lennie is of Finnish descent and he and his wife are headed home to Spokane after spending three days at the annual Finnish Festival in Minnesota they attend each year.    

Our favorite waitress Noelina is on duty this morning.  Noelina has bright painted lips and black hair pulled back off her face and secured with a clip in the shape of a floral arrangement.  As usual, Noelina glides down the aisle of the dining car with flair, cheerily offering suggestions on how to doctor up the drab, routine selections on the menu.

For the chocolate lava cake, she always suggests a mini-shot of half & half with instructions to pour its contents into the center of the heated cake.  “Just give it a minute to soak in!” she sings as she glides over to the next customer, this time offering a slice of fresh lemon to the thawed cheesecake drizzled with strawberry syrup. “Just squeeze it”, she says, “Trust me; it makes all the difference in the world!”  It’s hard to imagine the dry, pale cheesecake springing to life from a single spurt of lemon. 

As you have probably surmised by now, days on the train are punctuated by breakfast, lunch, and dinner.  In between meals, the train makes short, infrequent stops which allow us to stretch our legs and breath a little fresh air.  Otherwise, we remain huddled in the cozy compartment we’ve come to call home, reading, talking, napping, waiting for the next meal bell to ring as we take bets on what the days “meal special” will be.

For our final meal on board we are seated next to Ray and Jan, enthusiastic Cubs fans from Chicago.  Ray wears a Cub’s jersey and baseball cap.  Jan speaks with a distinct Midwestern twang.  Interesting how only since living in the south am I able to recognize the accent I grew up with in Michigan. Ray says he is looking forward to retirement this year when he and Jan will take a long, much-anticipated road trip.  He then proceeds to recite their full itinerary as follows:  First destination Seattle to visit Ray’s brother,  then LA to visit a friend of Jan's,  on to Phoenix (distant cousins), Denver and Houston (friends from high school), and finally on to their condo in Fort Meyers  where friends from Chicago will visit.  I’m exhausted for them already. 

When it’s our turn to talk, I say that my husband wrestles with the decision to retire.  After all, when you’ve spent nearly half a lifetime acquiring an education (college, medical school, residency, fellowship), it’s not so easily given up.  My husband’s lengthy education took us to Dallas, Chapel Hill, and then to Roanoke where we finally settled.  By the time he finished we were in our early thirties and I was pregnant with our first child.  

Our conversation continues to wind through dinner, dessert, and coffee while the great Empire Builder at long last screeches through the Montana countryside. The wild wild west.  I am distracted by passing scenery as I admire the tall reed canary grass and sagebrush out the window.  My husband’s voice trails off into a discussion of various gastrointestinal disturbances with our new friends who appear a bit bewildered. Sometimes my husband innocently assumes the things he takes for granted are usual topics of dinner conversation.  

For a moment my mood turns reflective as I attempt to recall what brought us on our long journey by train to this untamed land with no apparent end in sight. I think that perhaps it was nothing more than a healthy dose of curiosity,  a desire to explore the practicalities of traveling cross country by train not unlike our predecessors long ago, those brave souls who followed an irresistible urge for new lands with ever-widening vistas not knowing what they’d find . . .


Suddenly, a loud overhead speaker breaks my train of thought announcing we are yet three hours from our final destination,  East Glacier National Park.  Why in pioneer time we are practically there I tell myself.  We are scheduled to arrive by midnight the announcer adds (six hours later than anticipated). Heck, we've practically lost track of time anyway busily exploring new territory, staking claim to new ground.  Who knows what might happen before midnight, or what might appear around the next bend!  I think I’ll take my chances.

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Letting Go

 
I recently came across the following prose by Safire Rose on letting go of struggle.  In various scriptures, “letting go” is called “surrender”.  However, surrender here doesn't mean surrendering to someone or something, nor does it mean surrendering to a belief or ideal.  It has to do with an inner letting go.

Letting go means I no longer argue with what life throws my way.  Instead, I meet life on life's terms by letting go of my strongly held opinions and need to be right.  Not that what I care about deeply doesn’t matter, it’s simply that these things no longer hold me in their fettered grip.  My happiness is no longer dependent on outer circumstances or what others say or do.  It’s completely an inside job.  I am free.

   
 “She let go.
Without a thought or a word, she let go.

She let go of the fear.  She let go of the judgments.
She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head.  She let go of the committee of indecision within her.
She let go of all the “right” reasons.  Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

She didn’t ask anyone for advice.  She didn’t read a book on how to let go.
She didn’t search the scriptures.  She just let go.  She let go of all of the memories that held her back.  She let go of all the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.  She let go of all the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go.  She didn’t journal about it.  She didn’t write the projected date in her day-timer.  She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper.  She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.  She just let go.

She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.  She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.  She didn’t call a prayer line, nor post it on Facebook. She didn’t utter one word.  She just let go.

No one was around when it happened.  There was no applause or congratulations.  No one thanked her or praised her.  No one noticed a thing.  Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort.  There was no struggle.  It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad.  It was what it was, and it is just that.

In the space of letting go, she let it all be.  A small smile came over her face.  A light breeze blew through her.  And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.”

-      Safire Rose

Friday, April 14, 2017

Spring

  
Could it be that spring is here to stay?

Waking up.

Slowly, the neighbor’s tulips are coming into full bloom as my orange cat sits sunning himself in a nest he has made in the fresh mulch.  The girls next door playing under the trees, run squealing as they chase each other in a game of tag.  The hum humming of a distant lawn mower carries me off into thought, of what I can’t quite recall.  And when evening comes, I dust off my folded beach chair and sit out on the fresh mowed grass to watch the sun dip behind the blue mountains just as my husband texts me to say he’s on his way home.   
  

Spring. 

A magical time of year when nature peers from beneath folded buds and without fanfare miraculously pops open.  And there is the melodious buzzing and chirping that carry me off to sleep at night and again greet me as I wake in the morning.  For this reason, I tend to keep my windows ajar to let in the smorgasbord of color, sound, and buzz-i-ness. This should be the time of New Year’s resolutions and new beginnings (rather than the dead of winter) when the Redbuds along the Greenway inspire me to come out of myself and I begin to notice subtle changes, like I don’t need to play it so safe anymore, and I don’t need my pancakes to be perfectly round when I pour the batter onto the hot pan.  
 

Could it be this time spring is here to stay?

Or is it just the slow turning of life that moves us in a new direction in an almost imperceptible way, then circles back around to remind us that some things never change. 

Monday, December 5, 2016

Galapagos, Part 2



                                          Our Journey Continues 

Nov. 7
We rise early for an expedition to North Seymour, a small island near Baltra where our journey began.   The abundance of wildlife able to survive the harsh conditions on many of the islands is due to the Humboldt Current, a cold ocean current that carries nutrients and marine life from the southern tip of Chili north to Ecuador and Peru.  (The Galapagos lie 600 miles off the coast of Ecuador.)  For millions of years the wildlife here has continued to adapt in ways necessary for its survival. 

For example, the Marine Iguana has adapted to ocean life by learning to swim and dive to a depth of 30 feet or more for food.  This species of iguana is found nowhere else in the world.  According to Wikipedia:  “Although the Marine Iguana resembles a lizard, it has developed several adaptations that set it apart.  These include blunt noses for efficiently grazing algae, powerful limbs and claws for climbing and holding onto rocks, and laterally flattened tails for improved swimming. “   Charles Darwin described the Marine Iguana as “hideous-looking” and “most disgusting, clumsy lizards.”  An accurate description I would say except when in water they appear graceful and strong and are amazing swimmers thanks to the adaptation of long, flat tails.

We also encounter two species of Frigatebirds on North Seymour - the Great Frigatebird  and the Magnificent Frigatebird,  sea birds with enormous wing span that nest on the islands and swoop to snatch fish from the surface of the ocean. We observe dozens of them perched in brush and on tree branches, the males tirelessly strutting their stuff as the females look on, seemingly unimpressed.  One of the most gaudy displays of machismo in the animal world is the male Frigratebird as he inflates his bright red pouch in order to attract females for mating purposes.  There is no particular mating season for these birds, apparently any day or month will do, although mid-December through early April is most common. 

Brown Pelicans and Land Iguanas are also plentiful. They curiously peer up at us, unperturbed by our looming presence.  The fearless nature of the animal life is due to the absence of natural predators on many of the islands.  Nature lives in harmony for the most part, which is an amazing thing to witness.  The Land Iguanas are larger and more colorful than the Marine Iguanas and feed on prickly pear cactus pads.  Can't imagine biting into one of those!
After our hike, we return to the ship where we sail on to Sullivan Bay, Santiago Island.  On Santiago Island we step out of our zodiac onto the beach and walk a short distance to the spectacular lava fields.  The most recent volcanic eruption on this island was in 1897.  The once powerful lava fields display imprints of hot molten lava swirling, looping, and bubbling, now black and  hardened, as if frozen in time.  Hardly a sign of life except for one small cactus plant and a tiny lava lizard.  The terrain is potentially treacherous.  However, we keep our heads down so not to lose our balance as we jump over deep fissures, hop scotch across jagged landscapes, and pause to inspect colorful rock striations until the sun begins to set, casting shadows across the barren rock resulting in a beautiful display of light and shadow we attempt to capture with our cameras. 

Nov. 8
We’ve almost forgotten it’s election day back home until we wake to hear the news of our newly elected President.  To be quite honest, it’s a relief being far from civilization and all the political turmoil.  Although we hadn’t realized when we planned this trip that we would be gone over election day, we’re glad it turned out this way.  We voted early, voted our conscious, and that was that.   However, we have internet on board ship and a television in our room, so we are not completely out of the loop.   I turn my phone on once a day to post pictures , otherwise we are device free (except for cameras).  Now I remember what the world was like before smart phones, PC’s,  tablets, and kindles.

Nov. 9
Next morning, we visit a tortoise breeding center on the island of San Cristobal  where we encounter giant tortoises, once near extinction due to sailors long ago capturing them for their meat and fat in order to survive long ocean voyages.

In the afternoon we encounter rough seas on our zodiac crossing over to Punta Pitt.  Fortunately, our zodiac driver is experienced in riding out the waves.  Our wet landing involves jumping from our zodiac into shallow water close to the beach.  On the beach, we change from wet shoes into hiking shoes and are ready to go.

 A steep, narrow trail carved out of copper colored boulders leads us on a strenuous hike into the highlands where the rugged mountains open to an expansive, breathtaking view of the turquoise Pacific.  We walk until we reach the cliffs overlooking the ocean.  It is a climb well worth the effort and a spectacular sight to behold with ocean on one side and mountains on the other.   There is not much wildlife except for birds, beautiful Blue Footed Bobbies, perched on cliffs and in nests made from sticks, the only suitable organic material available for nest building.  They seem unaffected by the winds and crashing waves below them.  As we gaze back at the mountains, the light reflecting off the jagged rock make them appear golden one minute and grey the next. We hike back to the beach as the sun begins to dip below the horizon.  What a day!

Nov. 10
This morning we kayak along the rocky coastline of Rabida and Eden Islet, Santa Cruz Island.  The sea is calm and the sky blue.  We apply plenty of sun screen to exposed areas of our skin even though most of our body is covered by hats, long sleeves and pants.  We paddle along the rocky shore line watching the sea turtles swim, their small reptilian heads poking out of the water as they come up for air.  They are far better swimmers than one might imagine, in spite of their clumsy looking hard shells.  We barely need to paddle due to the currents, so we lift our oars out of the water, lean back and float downstream as we soak in the silent beauty all around us.
 
At one point we spot a young sea lion swimming alongside our kayak until he sees another sea lion sunning itself on a nearby boulder.  He jumps onto the rock and begins sparring with the other sea lion making loud screeching sounds until they both flop back into the sea, leaping in and out of the water.  We sit back and watch the show only a few yards from our kayak! 

On our afternoon hike we spot the only Predator of the islands, the Galapagos Hawk, now extinct on five of the islands.  It looks rather harmless and subdued perched high in some brush.

Nov. 11
We follow a nature trail on Plaza Island which follows the coast line.   Giant Galapagos Cactus sprout up out of the red, rocky terrain as seen in the photo below.  

Nov. 12
 Our journey is nearly over and yet it seems we’ve barely skimmed the surface of life on these islands.  My few short paragraphs are an attempt to capture some of the highlights of our discoveries, but my story is far from complete.  It’s one of those journeys where the effects will no doubt be felt long after we arrive home.

 Being immersed in nature, on nature’s terms, is awe inspiring to say the least.  It brings to light the inherent quality of all life which is to reach beyond its borders, to grow and evolve. This primal urge is embedded in its cellular structure and evidenced on these islands where in spite of harsh surroundings life continues not only to grow and adapt, but to thrive.

 Rumi so eloquently speaks to this vital force of nature when he writes, "Nonexistence is eagerly bubbling in the expectation of being given existence. . . for the mine and 
treasure of God’s making is naught but nonexistence coming into manifestation.” I believe he knew what he was talking about.

Sunday, November 20, 2016

A Mighty Force

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening, that translates through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it.  It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions.  It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.”          - Martha Graham



I became acquainted with the Martha Graham dance company, an innovative modern dance group, in the 1980’s when I had the good fortune to see them perform in New York City.  Martha Graham was still alive then and even though she was too aged and frail to perform, after the performance she was brought on stage in a wheel chair to a standing ovation.  During her life time she achieved tremendous success as a woman who transformed the world of dance by bringing her own daring expression and vision to her art form.

I happened to fall in love with modern dance in the 1970’s when in college I enrolled in several classes along with dance majors and football players who were encouraged by their coaches to take dance in order to help improve their game. Dance for me was a much needed break from my other more practical classes as well as a form of self- expression, a means of tapping into the joy and passion that comes from doing what you love.  As Martha Graham once said, “Great dancers are not great because of their technique, they are great because of their passion.”    I believe this applies to anything in life we set our hearts and minds to accomplishing.   

I also believe each one of us has a unique expression or gift to share with the world, whether we are aware of it or not.  I knew this even when I doubted it for myself, and have come to realize how imperative it is that we speak up and act on what we know to be true.

The line of questioning I have often followed is, “How does one keep the creative channels open?” as Martha Graham implores.  I recall as a child how I loved playing outdoors, riding my bicycle, exploring nature, climbing trees with my brothers, and digging in the dirt.  I didn’t mind getting dirty because I loved what I was doing.  It was fun.  The same holds true today, my passion and joy for life is sustained by doing what I love. Love is what keeps the channel open and creative juices flowing.
 
I’ve discovered that this mighty force has within it a wisdom all its own that nourishes and informs, ever guiding us in ways our old habits and limiting thoughts could never do.  At some point this love for what we do begins nudging us in new directions we never thought possible.  And because it is an energy that cannot be contained, it begins moving us in the direction of our dreams.  Remember those?

Yes, dreams.  We all had them as children.  Then we became adults (some of us anyway) and fell in line with the way adults think and behave.  For no good reason our dreams, those avenues of silly self-expression, began to fade and eventually fell by the wayside.  However, we can go back at any time and pick them up again because they are right where we left them, plus a few cobwebs and dust.  They might even require some resuscitative measures to get them back up and running, yet nothing is lost forever.  And of course, if you are like me, you will need to be reminded, “It is not your business to determine how good it is nor how valuable nor how it compares with other expressions.  It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open.”

Of course there will be moments of self-doubt, self-judgement and even stagnation.  But it is not your business to assign a value of good or bad, or put a label on it, because to do so would be reverting back to the old ways, the limiting, constricting beliefs we once bought into.  Energy can’t flow through areas of constriction; it only flows through openings.  So the highways and byways of the psyche and soul must be kept open at all costs.

You will come up with ways, your own ways, to maintain an open channel.  The things that resonant deeply, that send chills up and down your spine, or make you laugh out loud are all signs you are moving in the right direction, you are on the “right” path, the path that speaks to you, that makes you feel alive, that comes to you in your dreams and in the quiet moments when you are alone.

And remember:  “If you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost.  The world will not have it.”  The world needs your one–of-kind expression, your love, your creativity and passion.  It needs mine too.  Let’s not hold back any longer.